Monday, April 12, 2010

its been long since i update here.
but because i need some privacy, this is the place i need.
i feel so miserable now. really miserable.
we broke up.
and its my fault.
i was deleting the msgs on my phone and i saw the sms we exchanged in the past
he told me he missed me. he told me he loved me.

and now. he hates me.


so fucking upset now.
i really want to cry. but usually when i cry, he is around to wipe my tears.
but even if i cry all out now, i will still be alone in my room
i really miss him so much.
i want to hug him now and tell him how much i regretted my actions
and how much i still love him
i told myself repeat again and again.
"i dont love him, i am only used being with him"

BUT I KNOW I AM LYING TO MYSELF.
MY HEART HURTS SOOOOOO BADLY WHEN I MAKE MYSELF SAY THIS
CAUSE I STILL FUCKING LOVE HIM

and this mistake i made. i know i will regret it for life.
darling, i know you wont read this.
BUT I REALLY STILL FUCKING LOVE U SO MUCH
ITS KILLING ME REALLY. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, August 9, 2009

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Thursday, July 30, 2009

last tribute

cause i'm always the wrong one.
so happen, knowing when u cant see it.
coincidence or framed?
okay. so be it den.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

i've moved my blog to elsewhere
wont be blogging
gave up my nuffnang cash!
and facebook will be my new 'blog'.
will update there more often